The Journal

A sacred space for reflections and revelations on the art of becoming—where healing meets embodiment, and presence transforms into power.

The Journal is a living body of work—a practice of deep listening, sensual self-intimacy, and radical self-leadership. Here, we explore the intersections of trauma healing, nervous system regulation, somatic wisdom, and sensual awakening—where the body leads and transformation unfolds.

The Foundations of Deep Intimacy
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The Foundations of Deep Intimacy

At its core, intimacy is about how deeply you can be with yourself—with your own truth, your own emotions, your own presence. It is not about being close to someone else. It is about how close you are willing to get to yourself.

If you resist intimacy within yourself, you will resist it in others. If you cannot hold yourself in your messiness, your brilliance, your rawness—you will struggle to hold another.

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The Difference Between Self-Love & Self-Romance: The Foundation & The Celebration
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The Difference Between Self-Love & Self-Romance: The Foundation & The Celebration

Self-love and self-romance are often used interchangeably, but I’ve come to see them as two distinct yet deeply connected practices.

  • Self-love is the foundation.

  • Self-romance is the celebration.

Self-love is the structure, the daily devotion, the deep care.

It is the steady ground beneath me, the practice of tending to my needs with patience and presence.

But self-romance?

Self-romance is what makes life delicious.

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Pleasure as a Resource for Healing: Reclaiming Joy, Embodiment & Nervous System Regulation
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Pleasure as a Resource for Healing: Reclaiming Joy, Embodiment & Nervous System Regulation

For many women, pleasure feels distant, complicated, or even unsafe.

If you’ve been conditioned to see pleasure as indulgent, if you’ve lived in survival mode for years, or if your relationship with your body has been shaped by shame or disconnection—pleasure can feel overwhelming.

But pleasure should never feel like another task or expectation. It is something that unfolds at the pace of safety and curiosity.

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